Before I became a mother, I thought I knew what love was. I loved my family, my husband, and my life. Then I became pregnant with my son Jaxson. As soon as you see those pink lines on the pregnancy test, you are changed forever. The love that you feel for your unborn child is indescribable. You stress, worry, fear, hope and dream for this child that you do not even know yet. And then 9 months later, you meet them and your love multiplies by a million. You get it. You understand what true love is. It’s that feeling deep down in your stomach, a feeling that only a mother can understand. You have one child and you think that you can’t love anyone as much as that sweet baby, and then you have your second and your heart has room to love these two precious babes more than life itself.
Since having my daughter, I feel as though I have not spent as much time with my son. My son has always been a momma’s boy and having his sister take up a lot of momma’s time has been very difficult for him. It has caused him to misbehave more, to act out and to look for attention. He loves his sister and is a great big brother, but I have often found myself disciplining my son non-stop because of his behaviour and lack of listening. Last night, my sweet son opened up my eyes.
Jaxson and I haven’t been out just us two..his little sis is always with us (she won’t take a bottle). Last night, I decided to leave Charleston with my husband, and go out with my boy. I took him for a haircut, we went to the store to pick out what special treats he wanted to bring to his class today (we had already done Valentine’s) and then we got a treat. During our date, my son behaved the best I have seen him in months. He was so great when he was getting his haircut and multiple times said, “I love you, momma”, melt my heart. My baby boy just needed some time with his momma, and this momma just needed some time with her boy.
My little boy taught me about the most important thing, love. Becoming a mother has changed me. It has changed my appreciation for the small things, for time, for these fleeting moments that I will never get back and it has changed my heart. There is no greater love than the love I feel for my children. I hope you all spend today with those you love most! Happy Valentine's Day!
Charleston's Outfit (red): Joe Fresh, Charleston's Outfit (pink): Carter's. Jaxson's T-Shirt: Giant Tiger, Pants: Gymboree